It just keeps getting harder...

For some reason I just can't get the thought out of my head that I've lost something very important to me. I'm pretty sure that it's because I've lost one of my most precious friends over something stupid, and i'm pretty sure (actually extremely sure) that his brother completely hates my guts too!! God, this is just not my summer. Everybody around me tells me that its nothing, and its probably just in my head. I really do want to believe them, but i just can't shake the feeling. But I put on a smile for them and tell them that i'm pefectly fine. After all i don't want to drag anyone down with me. I mean all of my friends and everyone that really does care about me deserves to be happy...even when i'm not. Right now i just don't feel like i deserve to be happy right now. I just hope it passes sometime soon...

Hey hey

OK so I've been working on some songs with one of my best friends and we finished our first one just a few days ago!! Its so exciting!! O and i decided to choose some potential majors for colledge(even though its only my sophomore year)!! Acting is obviously one of them, then maybe photography as like my fall back option!! I love both of them so i'm just hoping that one of them sticks for the rest of my life!! Or atleast for most of it anyway. :) So we'll see how everything goes for now!! Bye!

ok...

Ok so i feel really bad cause i haven't typed anything for a while!! But anyway there hasn't really been anything happening with me at this point :) haha. But so far no boy problems...that haven't already ahppen with a certain someone that is!! I think that i need to find an acting workshop place or soemthing to improve any acting skill that i can muster for summer...haha! But thats really about it for now! So bye!!

...can you spell T-I-R-E-D??

Oh my gosh...I cannot believe how flipping tired I am!! I've been volenteering at the pool for 2 years now and you would think that you would get used to getting home to take a shower, lying on your bed closing your eyes for just a second and then waking up the next morning. Weird? Yes of course. Doesn't help that today I got off work early to go babysit a couple of theses really cute kids. My sis was supposed to help me but she decided to stay and work at the pool a little linger which left me to fend for myself. Actually it wasn't all that bad the kids were practically angels. And from what i hear from my sister the lifeguards at the pool made all of the Jr. guards scrub the gutters. >:P gross! so I guess i got off easy!!

Watch this

Ok so the audition we got called back for we couldn't go to so if we missed our chance then we'll never know right? But thats ok i don't think I really wanted it that much cause it would have taken so much time away from the things that are important to me right now. My friends, my family, my academic career. I don't think I want to lose any of those just yet. I mean I'm still practically a kid! i want to be able to live a normal life. Maybe one day I could act but not right now. Not at this point in my life. Anyway I'm updating today because the new maximum ride book came out and i'm gonna see if i can post the commercial they have for its opening. Lets see...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I2iEnLGTHIE o
ok you can just click the link and you should be able to see it!

UGH!! I'm so confused!!!

I can't stand boys!!! They are so sbsolutely confusing! They do something so absolutely sweet and then turn around and stab you in the back which ruins EVERYTHING!!!! I feel like screaming and tearing my hair out!!!! To many thoughts are going through my head right now it feels like its gonna burst!! Ugh, boys you can't live with them and you can't live without them, what can you do? Oh and if anyone was wondering how the audition went, we got called back were offered a place at the acting academy that was sponsoring the audition! They called easrlier today and said that they loved the fact that we were twins and that they could work with us and make us better actresses which is so cool!!! But heres the thing the class for basic training costs $1900 dolars...each, and we can't afford it right now but we'll see how the call backs go next sunday! Yay i'm so excited!!

Life can be terrifying and exciting...not to mention confusing

Ok, so I just got back from an audition for some acting/modeling agency a few hours ago and...MAN was it freaky. Granted it was my first audition ever, other than school auditions of course, and of course I would be majorly nervous. I think I did ok it was a little easier when they figured out that me and my sister were twins and insisted that we audition together cause we're just "so cute!" Haha it was funny. I'm in a better mood today, still a little sad, but better. I got an e-mail from my teacher today I gotta say that helped. And I got to see my, the one thats moving, and i'll see him one more time on monday, the day before hes actually leaving for good. As for the other ex-friend of mine, I'm more confused than ever with him. At the going away party last night for my friend i could have sworn that nothing had ever happened between us... I mean I wanted time apart, and I didn't mean 2 days, I wanted longer!! But....grrr... he has to find ways to bend the rules doesn't he?? Well we haven't talked at all since so maybe I'll still get my time.